Friday, February 29, 2008

It's alright if you throw all your thrash at me because I'm taking it in chunk by chunk feigning my own emotions that are hyperbolic enough t please you. It's alright if you think that my level of mentality was dirt low so that all your remarks that were shadowed and hidden were insufficient t hurt my pride. It's alright that I've been trying t change for the better and suppressed your negatives but you took that in and gave me in exchange your new found viewpoint of supremacy and now henceforth look at me with sardonic eyes. It's alright if every morning you take out this container of face powder which is your key t facing the world but you rub it off and display your ugliest t me of which is the most shocking and horrifying display. It's alright if your world is spinning faster than mine and I'm clinging on t the pace with my bare fingers, and it cuts, and it pains, and I won't be able t catch up anymore, but all I ever wanted t be, was that better friend. A new shell that I wanted t be living in and a leap of change from the yesteryears.

But fall after fall, the shy that has finally come a beat slower will now be numbed.

Thnks for the talk addie. Thnks for responding t my call.
& don't worry yanz, I didn't forget you. I didn't call you cause you've got sch tmr SA woman.

One neh neh two neh neh many neh nehs












They were like, real diaper material would you check that out! How come I never had real diapers for my doll?!



Right, so this was the day where addie & I gallivanted town after dance & had damn alot of photos but I'm not planning t put everything up cause I would call that a massive flood & a strenuous endeavor for your poor cornea.

I know I'm here at some screwy hour. Like, after I had my internal clock turned topsy turvy, the last time I was seen in motion at 7am++ w/o having any work commitments later on, was uh, uh, I can't really remember when but I'll let you know when I do. I ought t give my brain a lecture, says I. I only needed t have my rise & shine at 9 today so what was it thinking, feeling so generous all rejecting more than an hour's more of snooze.

Anyways can I blog in rads pls? I have so many minute bits & pieces all over the place it's going t take an eternity t piece them into paragraphs & pity a poor girl who's only had 3 1/2 hours of sleep.
-I give up painting my nails cause I repainted them over & over 3 times in total & they still give me a feeling of visual bullshit so I'll give pretty nails a miss. I don't know what happened t my skill of nail painting or perhaps the varnishes have started t dry up.

-Dentist visit later. So what colour should it be this time? I'm thinking lime green & something something. Don't know. Whoever's reading this blog at this maniacal hour pls text me colours thanks. But I know there's virtually no one.

-Last night's supper w soom was a joke we ate like the equivalent of a hippo & as expected my tummy feels queasy now I think, I think I need an output hahahahaha but my waste is taking far too long t travel down the tracts so I'll take some cyllium(?) husks t aid it later HAHAHAHAHAH.

-The blog song is like my latest song addiction at gap & I know thaya likes it too he's just playing pretend. Deep inside he knows he's a sucker for emotional songs he just doesn't wanna play the weak one can't be helped right right okay. Btw can some love pls download this song for me I can' frigging shit find it anywhr.

-Today I will meet soom & we'll start saying poondeh & have a thrill at tt word. Poondeh btw, as I've learned yest, is cheebye in tamil lol lol lol funny right.

-Addie asked me the other day in front of Jason, Ken & Emerson. "Jamie, what is come?" I didn't know how t react really. After I've recovered from the trauma though I went out of the storeroom bursting into hysterical fits of laughter(as always), & I'm still having a kick ass of a time laughing now.

-Apparently she asked tt question cause Emerson said his tausuan looked like come.

Addie's old enough t be a museum.



3 blisters in a row is endurance to the maximus!





Tissues=comfort


Picnic by the clarke quay longkang with addie & the good company of mash potatoes, sausages, b.b.f, hot & spicy chips & chicken tenders. Much disappointment, our good company eventually bid their last goodbyes before getting flushed off by some hydrochloric acid & it was down t the two of us & our crazy antics.

I've always despised Spore for their pitiable selection of shoe designs & the only considerable shop around would have t be charles & keith. Quite distressingly though, their high cuts gave me a nice row of blisters that make me wish I could cut off nervous impulses t my legs while I take my shower so that I wouldn't have t wince in agony.

Anyway saturday had been the busiest day of my life(apart from cleaning my room cause that makes a year of chores in one day). I had ballet in the morn, followed by lyrical hiphop(I NEVER WNA GO BACK THERE AGAIN YOWWW), then girls' hiphop, & then explore the unknown w addie, then like p.s i love you w my munchkin yanzums. I'm not complaining about how hectic it was. In fact everyday should be busy saturday so everyday would be just as eventful & fruitful as the other.

Btw p.s i love you is a great show I curse & spit at the person who rated the movie 2stars. My goddd it was the saddest show I cried at every scene. & it wasn't an ordinary eyes-well-up-with-tears cry. My mucus was going out of control, totally! & just so you know, that day was about the 2nd or 3rd time yanzums & I sat at the wrong seat of the cinema. We should learn t stop being jokes.

PAYDAY TMR AT 11PM BUT PAY IS PEANUTS I HATE MYSELF FOR NOT PRINTING MONEY.

***edit
I am undeniably put off by this nonsense. It's beyond ridiculous how you people put it. Once, twice, 862893752735 times people blame me for robbing a place in poly from them and/or their friends. For one meager reason- that I qualified for a JC but I chose the route in poly. You all may think I'll perceive all this as a joke & you all are playing around but I beg t differ thank you. I prefer t think that it's angst masked up with layers after layers of false pretence so it becomes a nice package but I'm sorry your wrap ups are far too lucent. & just recently, mind you, I overheard this bunch of fckass girls complaining about people like me & how we leave them no way out. When will you retards just regain your senses & stop pinpointing at others for whatever results you have gotten that doesn't qualify you t wherever you wanted t go? This is democracy we're speaking about here all's fair the government doesn't have anything against you so maybe you should start searching yourself for answers instead of pulling others down as stepping stones for your blurred vision. FCK! ONE MORE PERSON I HEAR IT FROM AND WE'RE QUITS!
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Soom & addie went a little overboard with the arts.

Emerson, or was it lester gurrlie, forgot t bring in a table before closing the shutters & check that out!


My fav. girl at GAP & fellow loud mouth, jeannie bam bam!

I keep pronouncing his name wrong. It's Syah but pronounced SHAH.




"Ayyyeee so nice!" she says when the picture is shot. & bambam claims all credit.

Initially, it hadn't been this tear jerking scenario I was supposed t experience after leaving MI. You know, like the whole post departure thing. But of late, after blog hopping & browsing through multiple photos & sweet little love notes I really am feeling quite bitter that our journey has already ended, & really just shed tears in response.
Coincidence you could call. I happened to skim through a maniacal lot of folders in this 1000 year old computer of mine & found several videos of the uniform days. I am very very heavy at heart now. All of a sudden I feel like I'd been unknowingly trapped in this bulk of quick drying cement & I'm unable to move on with life.

Perhaps sometimes when a phase has gone it's way, it's steps can never be retraced. After all life isn't about the forward and rewind button & I chose t believe that no external factor can manipulate the course of life so we all have to happily accept that. It happens just because. I'm only but in a state of terrible regret that time has already slipped through my fingers.
But I'll take the fall and learn to cherish. Cast in stone or not, I'm holding dear to the fact that it has happened.


Ahhhh KEEMY, SIVS I miss you all bonkers. ): ): ):
No yanzxxx i dont miss you we're mtg tmr hahahahah.